why do you still love me ?

 why do you still love me ?

i got nothing, i am not attractive, i am not smart, i am flawed, i got nobody

so why ?

i was coughing in our bedroom that night, you went to the kitchen and bought me water

sometimes i wonder,

why do you still love me,

why do you love this flabby fat bear so much ?

My Valentine

 It was Valentine's day morning, woke up, and did the usual which I have been doing since we started to live together, go towards Bee, wrap my arms around him, pull him closer, give kisses, and whisper "I love you" few times near his cute ear, then enjoy the warmth of his body for few minutes before waking up to shower.

The day started, Bee was preparing to shower before we go out together for breakfast, then going to his office, I was praying, then decided to change into new clothes. I knew Bee was inside our wardrobe room getting his clothes, then I slowly entered only to see Bee quietly doing something on the floor, with a pen on his hand, he was startled, as if didn't expect me to open the door, and he innocently tried to hide something from me. This moment will always be fresh in my mind, like how he was startled, with a pen on his hand, on the floor doing something, it was cute, just cute, to me, because that's how much I love him. Then I closed the door and waited in the living area of our new home, yes, we moved to a new house last month, some of you may already know as you're following me on Instagram. 

Sat in the living room looking outside the balcony, trying to figure out what Bee was doing, then I heard the door being closed, I knew Bee was inside the bathroom already. Got up and went into our wardrobe room to change clothes. As I opened the wardrobe, I saw a box hanging between two hangers inside, beside my shirts, with a cute note. I smiled.

True love is indeed a blessing

Our furkids, Boba and Kopi in our new bedroom, pondering why we are suddenly living up on a very tall place now , luckily they adapted to our new home very fast 

and my heart turned 30 a few days after Valentine's day :)

wishing all readers a belated happy Valentine's day, 

may there be many more lovely moments for us to remember and cherish in our lives <3

Another Year Older & Happy 6th

 Honestly, I can't remember how old I am, nope, ain't kidding, plus I don't really like 26th of August anyway, so was it 34, 35, 36 ? Wo pu che tau, but I do know that I turned a year older, cute Bee surprised his beary hubby with an ice cream cake and a gift, plus since it was still MCO back in August, we can't really dine out, just ordered pizza ( i love peeeeshaaaa ) for dinner, and like always my bestie, Miss Hemz Butterfly surprised me with a bouquet and macaroons  :)

kek ais krim <3

Miss Butterfly's bouquet <3

Boba investigating the bouquet ;p

And we "celebrated" our 6th anniversary

6 years, time flies, felt like it was just yesterday I took my cute ah beng hubby for lunch at that 7 Eleven, still in love with this baby monyet, and will always do, there's no place for anyone else in my heart, and I will always love his fluffy butt <3 ;p

no idea why Bee wanted to do that heart shape thing when I took this photo  XD

Happy 5th & 2021

 Gosh, haven't updated the blog for so long, hope everyone is okay, hope everyone had a good Chinese New Year, let's hope the year of the ox would bring in better times, the rat year was rather chaotic, with the pandemic, and no thanks to the political situation.

So last September was our 5th anniversary, how's things with us ? I guess those who follow my updates on Instagram knows things are good with us, but somehow I guess the age difference does cause some small issues, which is totally okay with me, Bee being workaholic, at times, I believe he's just too young to understand what to prioritize in life, and he throws tantrum at times, plus loves to "fly" his phone for no apparent reason, I guess things would change once he gets older, hopefully, and there are some who assume that we are actually in an open relationship ( what the flying fuck ?!! ), nope, nope, nope, we love each other, and there's no way I would be going after another guy, or another ass for that matter, plus it's kinda annoying that some also assumed that my bestie is my fuck buddy ( double facepalm ), despite being in a small circle of gay friends, the drama is always there. Anyway, back to our relationship, my bestie Athena always poke fun at me, saying me and Bee rarely fight, and I guess nothing wrong in having less arguments etc, especially when there's understanding and love, plus trust, oh, I finally added some of our neighbours on Facebook, and I guess they already knew there's a gay couple living around as their neighbour, haha, but the only extraordinary thing is that, it's one cinapek in a relationship with an apunene  ;p

so on our anniversary, took Bee to my favourite beach to meet his "friends" the monkeys !!

anniversary dinner at our favourite cafe in PJ, 123 Gasing  <3

celebrating mooncake festival at our home  :)

The one and only ass I am in love with  <3 ( so we are happy to be in a monogamous relationship, some idiots should not assume that all gay guys are the same 

Our furkids, three cats to be precise, they give us plenty of entertainment during MCO, hahaha

Mimi, innocent face, tapi setan no 1, haha

Kopi the crazy and clingy tonkinese cat

and Boba the cow

MCO

just realised that I didn't update this blog for months !! XD

anyway, it's MCO now, hope everyone out there are safe, cuci tangan selalu, always wear mask, and please don't rayau around unnecessarily :p

I feel like MCO is kinda normal here in our place and neighborhood, we don't have roadblocks here, but people are taking precautions like social distancing etc, but still got few sohai driving around with entire family, and some got no brain to keep a distance at hypermarket. 

First week of MCO was kinda crazy tho, hard to get eggs, bread, and even baked beans and mayonnaise, dumb humans just hoard stuff like it's doomsday soon, after that eventually hypermarket shelves were back to normal

I kinda miss going to the temples to pray, and I definitely miss gym

otherwise ok lah, don't really feel that much difference during MCO

Bee didn't go back to his parents place, but instead wanted to be with me 

so what me n Bee have been doing during MCO :

~ i usually tabao lunch for us, sometimes i cook breakfast/ dinner for us as well

~ the usual house chores

~ playing with our cats

~ watching old TVB dramas at night together

the rest i let you guys to imagine lah  :D

Bee's juicy bao !! <3

squeeze squeeze <3

Happy 4th

This post was supposed to be last month, yes, our 4th anniversary was more than a month back, but somehow I was just too busy with many things, there was barely time for me to simply sit down in front of the laptop to update this blog, just busy living life, just busy enjoying being alive, as in living every moment of life, creating memories together with Bee,  plus we have officially become a parent to two furkids, adopted two kittens from the local animal shelter, so yeah, besides me checking on the stock market and doing other things, we have a new responsibility of taking care and loving two kittens at our home, so life is even more exciting for both of us now :)

It has been 4 years plus, can't believe how time flies, it was just like yesterday we had lunch together at that 7 Eleven nearby Bee's first workplace, and after 4 years of going through so many phases through life, the happy moments, the sad ones, the hardships, it still feels like just yesterday I fell in love with my ah beng, it's kinda hard for me to explain, let's just say that I love him more and more as time passes by, I fall in love with him every single day as a new day rises and the night follows where we cuddle to sleep. 

But, was this relationship perfect ? Nope, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, believe me folks, yes, we are happy, we are in love with each other, but were we smiling all the time without any issues ? I don't think so, see, like I have said many times, relationships aren't fairytales, you can't expect it to be perfect, and you should never expect your other half or yourselves to be perfect, why ? Because end of the day, we are all human beings, nobody in this planet is perfect, each and every one of us would definitely have some flaws here and there. So, many of our single friends often ask me why both of us are so happy, some of them even say that they're jealous of us both, especially with all the things I share on Instagram, but the thing is, there were times we had little fights, there were times we were angry with each other, there were times we didn't talk to each other for a day or two, but end of the day, we never gave up on each other.

Yes, we do fight, sometimes I become mad at him, sometimes Bee becomes mad at me, but the thing is, we didn't fight like super crazy lah, like how some couples simply fight for no reason, and one more thing, we never had misused the word "breakup" simply before, never ever. Being angry is one thing, being irrational is another thing. I can't really understand why some couples, whenever they fight for the smallest of issues, suddenly say they want to breakup, like, are you people aware that when you use that word, you're literally becoming toxic to your other half and emotionally blackmailing them ? Get mad at each other, that's totally fine, be quiet for a day or two, that is also okay, but never resort to emotional blackmailing, especially when you know that your other half truly loves you. 

Relationships aren't easy, but it's worth it. We need to be understanding, we need to have patience, we need to have empathy, and most importantly, a happy relationship requires both parties to work together to build a solid foundation with love and trust, if it is one sided, then it would be a tough road ahead. Lately, I have come to know that few of the couples within our circle broke up after being together for few years, and it saddened me very much, as I really love to see two souls being together in love. But after giving a thought on that, I have realised that majority of break ups are caused by expectations. Expectations, yes, they can cause heartache, but when we have an expectation on a person, we should understand one thing, they are not us, like I said before, everyone on this planet is different, nobody's the same, if you want a guy who's just like you, then you love yourself and stay single forever, senang cerita, the problem is, many of us create unnecessary expectations on our other half, assuming they're like us, assuming they think like us, and literally believing that they can read our mind. I hate to break this but, sometimes, expectations on others can not only cause a heartache on yourself, but it can also be a burden on those you love, relationship is built on unconditional love and care, so when you have expectation on how a person should treat you, believe me, you will not be treated genuinely, the person would probably feel stressed knowing you have a lot of expectations on them, and end of the day, both of you won't be happy.

When it comes to unconditional love in a relationship, even sex should be unconditional, I don't know why but many of our friends think that we have sex almost every single night, the truth is, intimacy can be in many forms, it's not always about sex, yes, sex is important, but there are also other aspects in a relationship that makes the bond stronger besides physical intimacy. Many of our friends complained to me, they said that their boyfriends don't have sex with them often, so they assume their boyfriends are cheating on them, why ? Just recently, a friend of mine told me that he suspects his boyfriend is cheating on him, the reason given, no sex for two weeks, just two weeks and this fella already came up with a story in his mind that his boyfriend is cheating on him, I was just laughing, I mean, two weeks ? I even had a friend who complained to me that his guy doesn't want to have sex with him for more than a year, and he was seeking my advice on how to resolve the bedroom issue. At times, I believe most of us never really reflect on a situation properly. First, our bf/other half/partner, they're human, they think differently, they would even have different views on what love/ sex is, sometimes they can even be tired, sometimes they won't even be in the mood, so, would it be good for us to simply accuse them without being understanding ?

I even came across few of our friends who told me that they're no longer in a monogamous relationship because their other half wants to be in an open relationship. This thing is rather complex, at times I would just keep quite and just listen to what my friends have to say without giving them any advice. I mean, why do some people want to be in a relationship, if they can't be loyal to one person ? Might as well be single kan ?  Why do some people want to drag along others into the shit they create ? Ask yourself this question, if you people are into open relationship, first of all, are you people okay if your other half treats your exactly the same like how you people treat them ? The funny thing is, most of the people I had come across, they don't mind cheating on their other half, but they want their other half to be loyal to them, like what the flying F ? Bodoh ke apa ? Before you people do something to others, remember to ask yourself first, how would you feel if you were treated the same ? Open relationship it seems, kalau gatal sangat, please stay single and don't stress other people with your shitty self.

A happy relationship requires a lot of work, it's not easy, but it's worth it, especially when you have that special someone in your life to age gracefully together, to support each other, and to make beautiful memories together. 

Happy 4th anniversary Bee, love you always <3

Kopi <3 Susu

tried to upload something notti for the first time, see if the video works or not, haha !! XD

Mid Autumn

Another blessed mid autumn festival, we light up lanterns and candles together in front of our home, managed to get our neighbour's attention ( it's obvious we are a couple, but I think our neighbours are still trying to figure out how this kopi and susu got together, haha ). We also had mooncakes for breakfast. More beautiful memories to remember  :)

Wishing all the readers out there, happy mid autumn festival, 祝大家 中秋节 快乐 <3

Birthday

"I thought you would be coming back home yesterday after work, I thought you wanted to have dinner together on your birthday", my dad sadly said while holding out a wrapped gift towards me.

I looked at him, something was squeezing my heart, I felt bad, it's not like I didn't want to celebrate my birthday with him, but traffic on Friday evenings can be hell in KL, and so I decided to head back home on Saturday morning instead.

But, I never told him about the half day off I took at work to be with Bee on my birthday that year.

Am I to be blamed ? Did I do something wrong ? I was in dilemma, both Bee and my dad are my priority in life, Bee is important to me, so does my dad, but I wonder what made me prioritize Bee more that year, that I wanted to spend my birthday with Bee that year.

So was the traffic issue an excuse for simply being selfish ? 

Is it selfish to spend birthdays with your other half instead ?

I don't know, sometimes, I just don't know.

Little did I know that it would be the last birthday gift from my dad.

Sometimes there's a reason why I hate my birthday.

Many bad things happened on my birthday.

I rarely remember a pleasant childhood birthday celebration, my parents love to quarrel on that day for no apparent reason.

And few years back, I decided to commit suicide right on my birthday, on which I survived, and I'm thankful that I did survive, although I still feel embarrassed for my mistake. 

I don't really like my birthday, but I love to gift others on their birthday to show appreciation for their existence in this world, something which I had been doing since I was small, I love to give simple gifts, like bars of chocolate, or cute gifts, and I presume it was encouraged by my late mother, who always said that it's important to do small deeds, like surprising people to make them happy, after all, it's those small little things in life that makes memorable moments.

And of course, it doesn't need to be an expensive or lavish gifts, it's the thought that counts.

After my mom passed away, I recall what my dad did for my birthdays, he would always buy expensive gifts, and often get me cakes from Secret Recipe, although he rarely spent his time with me on my birthday as he was a workaholic. Why, he even bought a coupe cabriolet for one of my birthday, yes he was a super wealthy man, but sadly he assumed those fancy gifts would replace his frequent absence from my life.

But somehow my dad managed to realize his mistakes after retiring, and few times before he passed away, he managed to make few of my birthdays memorable, and he also realized that I prefer those simple pandan cakes from the normal bakeries in town, I never wanted anything fancy, but I was happy that he took the initiative at last to understand what I really like, and that it has nothing to do with expensive stuffs.

And I'm still keeping the last birthday gift he gave me, it's a cute small keychain, so small, yet so meaningful to me, although I don't use it nowadays as it gave up to wear and tear, I kept it safely, and I do take and look at it every once in a while.

But then again, it would never change how I think of my birthday, I dread whenever August comes, and I rarely look forward to that day, a day that holds many bad memories, my birthday.

Unplanned

Unplanned morning sex is beautiful, although we don't kiss mouth to mouth since we just woke up before making love, but still being able to kiss and moisturize his body with my saliva, it's really romantic, the sudden move, the coldness of the morning, the tiny bit of light from dawn that hits our window curtain.

Fondling his butt, running my fingers up and down his boypussy while kissing his neck and biting his ear, and the way he touches me back, it's beautiful, it's special, he makes me go sky high, he makes life even more beautiful, he, is my other half.

This is true love.

I love you, Bee <3

his lovely peach <3

Succulent

We are going to be together for almost 4 years now, and despite all the sweet memorable moments made together, there's one tiny thing that makes me unhappy about Bee, his lack of self confidence, and like all gay guys including myself, he has his own body image issues.

"Bee bee butt where got round, it's flat", over the years, I got used to hearing this from him whenever I compliment his lovely ass.

And to make him feel appreciated ( apart from ravishing his butt while we made love ) I have done few things to let him know that he truly has an amazing ass.

I got him plenty of jockstraps, and fancy underwears.

I honestly told him that he makes me horny AF, and I fantasize him over the weekends while I tfk, plus along the years, he's the only guy that ever appear in my wet dreams, I'm not joking about that part, I truly love him, so basically I never think of another guy, and I can't remember when was the last time I watched porn.

It's not to say that I'm overly obsessed with his butt, but loving him truly, that's my way of showing how much he means to me.

And this would sound TMI, I would only feel complete after I release my "milk" deep inside his boypussy while we make love. That's one of the reason I believe that sex is not simply an act of lust, but it's a form of spirituality that connects two lovers on a higher spiritual level.

Despite all these, he still thinks that he doesn't have an amazing ass, to which I warned him that if he keeps on saying his butt is flat, I would take a picture of his butt and post it online.

So, here I'm, officially posting a picture of his succulent, lovely ass.

I don't care what people might think of this post, but I'm proud of my hubby's lovely ass  <3

dat ass is da best <3

My Sleep Talker

Was half asleep when I felt Bee moving around on our bed, woke up and check the phone, it was around 2 a.m, turned towards him and continued to gaze on him, suddenly he started to talk, he said "bear bear", then giggled, and continued to giggle on his sleep, moved closer to him carefully and gently gave a kiss on his cheek, then continued looking at his movements till I fell asleep. 

The cute things he does even when he's asleep, sometimes I wonder what he's dreaming.

Love you always <3

Warm

one night, well, almost every night while both of us cuddle together

Bee : why Bear Bear hand so warm ?
Me : because you make me warm *kiss his neck below his ear*
Bee : later Bee Bee butt will become steaming hot char siew bao lo...
Me : * continue to fondle his lovely butt with my hands *
Bee : *giggle*

Bee's juicy peach clad in Aussiebum's Catch of The Day mesh underwear  <3

Morning Ritual

the first thing in the morning after waking up,
to give you morning kisses, and naughty bites,
a kiss on your neck,
a kiss on your shoulder,
moving down,
grabbing those round juicy peaches,
two kisses planted on both,
too irresistible not to bite,
so few bites after kisses on your lovely butt,
moving up,
you turn your face towards me,
kisses on your cheek,
kisses on your nose,
kisses on your forehead,
my arms around you,
pulling you closer,
enjoying the warmth of your body,
feeling your smooth skin,
this too is intimacy,
a way to show love,
a way to show appreciation,
on how much you mean to me,
on how much i adore you

a morning ritual,
for you to know,
that i love every inch of you <3

27

Okay, I was supposed to post this after Valentine's day, as in last February, but somehow I totally forgot to update about Bee's birthday on this blog, partly because both of us weren't well after Chinese New Year thanks to the hot weather, and I was taking care of Bee after he had high fever for few days after Valentine's day, plus I ended up with a mysterious locked knee issue after Valentine's day ( nope nope nope, please don't think anything notti  ;p ) which made me go for few Chiropractic session. 

So here it goes, Bee is 27 years old this year, yay, I'm so happy !! Haha, another year older, but my guy remains to look like a cute twink, thanks to his Chinese genetics, I mean, few of our friends told me that he looks like a high school kid, and I'm sure those rainbows who bump into us at malls and theaters would probably think Bee got "daddy issues" since I look freaking old, hahaha !! XD

Anyway, it's my third time celebrating his birthday together, so this year, I surprised him with gifts, and most importantly, a Baymax themed super cute birthday cake, thanks to Foret Blanc, they really did a wonderful job, Bee was so excited when he saw the cake, and he was kinda reluctant to cut the cake, because he said it was just so super cute, felt really happy because Bee loved the surprise a lot, and yes, another memorable moment for us to remember.

Happy 27th birthday my love <3

Eyes

time stops in the moment of admiration,

time moves slowly when we count our blessings,

i love your eyes,

i love to look deep into them,

as they look into mine,

how lovely they're,

i wouldn't mind gazing into them for eternity,

for i adore every inch of you,

the cute dweller of my heart,

in silence,

no words spoken,

we held our hands,

and looked at each other,

there's nothing but smile,

there's no need for an explanation,

as our eyes,

they speak in the language of love.

~ a.r.k ~

Fate

Dad was walking ahead of me on the path along the forest behind our home on the hill, everything seemed to me like an ordinary evening walk we do often together.

Sometimes it feels so real, I can't differentiate them.

The sky was rather dark, it looked as if it was about to rain.

"Pa, I think we should head back home"

Dad turned to me and smiled.

A huge black cloud with a human like figure came out of nowhere from the forest and grabbed him.

Shocked, I quickly ran towards my dad and managed to grab his right hand tightly.

I wasn't scared, and I knew I'm strong enough to save him.

The black cloud pulled my dad into the forest, but I held him strongly.

Amidst the chaos, my dad was just smiling.

I wasn't prepared for this, but I wasn't giving up either.

Anger arose in me, I clenched my right hand tightly, and along with the diamond ring, I gave a strong punch on the black cloud.

The diamond shattered, and I knew there was nothing that can be done.

The fiery naked red skinned lady looked from far, she wasn't laughing like she used to, there was sadness in her face, she stood there and watched.

I screamed at her, I begged her to come and help me like how she used to before, but she stood there looking, doing nothing.

I was growing weaker, I looked at my dad's face for the one last time before darkness took him into the forest.

Somehow I knew what was going to happen, I couldn't fight against his fate, the sadness in her face told me everything, there will be no help from above, I'm all alone.

I was driving towards my office when I received the call from my dad, took emergency leave, and drove straight back home before taking him to the hospital.

That's when everything changed, that's when fate began it's course, taking me into a journey filled with unforgettable memories. 

I knew who I was, I cheated death many times, I experienced miracles in many forms, I have seen unexplainable things in life, yet, no matter how much prayers or vigils I observe for my loved ones, I knew I wasn't capable of changing their fate. 

You can never stop fate from doing its work.

Juicy

I was reading the novel on the bed as Bee started to undress, preparing to shower before joining me on the bed. I pretended to read, but my eyes were enjoying that boyish beauty as Bee slowly stripped  himself naked. When he finally removed his underwear, I gazed upon his smooth perky butt, those lovely round buns.

We did the usual ritual before going to bed, watched funny videos together, and then cuddled before we both fell asleep.

I felt his breath close to my face, he pulled my hand and placed it on his butt, as my fingers traced the smooth round buns, I realised he was only wearing a jockstrap, I giggled softly as my mouth went towards his neck. I began licking behind his ears while squeezing his juicy butt with my hand. He began to moan softly, an indication that he wants my saliva to moisture his whole body before my tongue goes down to rejoice on his juicy butt.

We kissed slowly, our tongues made love while we exchanged our bodily fluid, I looked at his lovely face before going towards his pink nipples, he moaned loudly, the sound of pleasure filled our room.

"I love you," I whispered onto his ear before turning him slowly, allowing his juicy butt to face me. My hands squeezed both his soft buns, planted few kisses on them before pushing both away gently to reveal his pink orifice to paradise, he was clearly waiting for me to bury my face in between his soft buns, and to feel my wet tongue on his boy pussy as the anus muscles were pulsating slowly, eager to be caressed.

I rubbed my stubble gently on the smooth skin that surrounds his pink orifice, he pushed his butt further to bury my face deep inside.

"Yessssss", he moaned.

My brown rod was continuously leaking pre cum, apart from his mesmerizing loud moans, and the eagerness to slide my rod into his tight pink boy pussy, it was also a natural reaction to my beloved's sexy and lovely attributes, from his boyish look, to his perky smooth butt, a huge long rod, and of course, my love for him, plus the craving to make love with someone you deeply cherish in your heart.

I continued to relish on Bee's juicy butt.

I felt something sticky and moist below, I woke up and saw Bee sleeping soundly beside me.

It was another lovely wet dream.

nope, he never told me to stop, he enjoys his bear eating his juicy peach  ;p 

Lessons of Life

The airport, a place with many memories, I sat at the cafe sipping on a cup of coffee while looking around, it was that same cafe many years ago, and it was that same seat, sometimes I ponder why I remember things with so much details although it has been part of a distant memory

It was that same airport, I saw this guy many years back, it was the same airport I took that flight with courage, going to Miri and coming back on the same day, just to surprise that guy that I used to love, I went all the way there to surprise him on his birthday, although deep inside I knew it was not going to change how things were, I used to love him, yes, but he never did, so it's a memory of an unrequited love, a memory that can never be erased, but I embraced it as a lesson given by life, and I have no shame in admitting to what I did, besides, there's nothing wrong with loving someone.

I remember the places he took me, the Chinese temple, that hill, the beach, we shared a bowl of leicha that afternoon, and I even remember how he accidentally scratched his car bumper after reversing onto a stone near the beach on that day. 

I remember everything in detail, but, I can't remember his face, I can't recall how he looked, it's as if his face was erased completely from my heart, but I know what caused it, the face of an unrequited love was erased completely by the love shown by a guy who loves me completely now.

See, love is a complex matter, sometimes you fall in love with a person, but you can't expect them to love you the same way, love just comes naturally, it can't be forced, a person may love you,  but not the same way as you love them, love can grow stronger as days pass, but sometimes it can even wither away, and if you ever get into an unrequited love, let it go, because end of the day, when you decide to let go of the person who doesn't love you, the right one would appear in your life eventually. When a person doesn't love you, it's not the end of the world, it's not the end of the life, it's simply life's way of telling you that you deserve someone who would love you just as much as you would.

As I sat at the airport thinking about the past, thinking about all the things I had been through, I saw a familiar face walking out of the arrival hall, my face changed quickly, there was nothing but smile, there was nothing but happiness, the intense joy that filled my heart, I got up and walked towards him, and the moment he saw me, there's that smile on his face that I fell in love with, that I fall in love every single day in the morning when he wakes up next to me, the smile that makes me understand what home truly is.

There he was, walking towards me, in the same airport,

the guy who made me understand,

what love truly is,

what relationship is all about,

what patience is,

the guy who made me realise the importance of,

not giving up on each other,

self love that makes your other half love you even more,

finding happiness in little things that money can never buy,

the guy who,

loves me the way I am,

loves me unconditionally,

hugs me the moment he wakes up in the morning,

hold my hand whenever I'm driving,

cheer me up with his funny face whenever I look down,

gives surprise hugs from behind,

always does cute things that never fail to put a smile on my face,

never complained when I ravage his lovely butt, sometimes I bite hard *notti grin*

makes me mad sometimes, but shows his puppy face that melts my heart away  ;p

did many more beautiful things for me, the list can go on and on  :)

there he was, 

my heart,

Bee, 

walking towards me, 

making me realise what home truly is,

home is where the heart is <3

A Valentine

Recently Bee did something, which rather surprised me. Years ago, whenever we used to spend time together during the weekends, we used to cuddle after our notti activities, Bee as usual would fall asleep on me, and I would stay awake, patting him gently while enjoying the scent of his skin, brushing his hair and so on, and one of the things which I used to do is, I would kinda gently use my fingers to "draw" letters on his skin, usually on his back, forming words like "I love you", "you are my heart" etc. And I did this while he was asleep.

So Bee did the same thing on me after we woke up one morning recently, it was sweet, and kinda reminded me of those lovely yesteryear memories when we weren't staying together. 

Happy Valentine's day my love, you will always be my heart <3

Flower Power

Two days before Valentine's day, me and Bee got a surprise from our bestie, blogger Hemz, it really helped to cheer us up as both of us weren't really feeling well, Bee was down with fever, and I had sore throat because of the hot weather. It was really a sweet surprise, and we loved it, thank you so much for being thoughtful Hemaa, truly blessed to have you in our life  : )