Friday 18 May 2018

You

If you ever wonder how much you mean to me,
words aren't enough to describe it,
but if you observe closely,
on everything I do for you,
from the tiniest of details you might have missed,
to the little things that carry an infinite amount of love,
when you observe them closely,
then you would realise,
how much you mean to me...

how I wake up few times at night,
just to make sure that the blanket is covering you,
how I would sometimes gaze at you while you're asleep,
and kiss you gently without waking you up,

how I carry you in my heart,
whenever I go to the monasteries to pray,
or to the places we had been to together,
even when you're not beside me, 
you're there in my heart,
in my soul,
the warm beautiful memories,

how I observe you silently,
even when you're not aware,
how you look at something,
your expressions,
the smile,
the way your eyes move,
behind those thick glasses,
how you laugh,
many more,

how I think of you every moment,
when you're at work,
or,
when you're back at your parents place,
how I smile at the empty seat beside me while I drive,
remembering how you would hold your favourite plushie,
how I smile at the empty side of the bed on weekends,
remembering what we did,
knowing you would be back the next day,

how you satisfy me in my dreams,
when we never made love for some time,
and even when there's an urge,
I would only dream of you,
even in my wet dreams,
it is only you,
if you even wonder why I never check on other guys,
nor stopped watching porn since you stole my innocence,
it's simple,
there's only you,
in my heart and soul,

if you ever wonder,
remember,
just observe,
and your heart will tell you,
that you're my irreplaceable treasure,
and you will always be

you're my heart,
you're the meaning of my life,
you're the smile on my face,
you're the love within my soul,
you're my strength,
you,
you're my everything