Thank You

I came out of the office during tea break to check on you, something which I usually do on working days during break time, just to look at my phone and check if you had posted any updates, or to simply send you a message or a sticker just to kacau you, and go through the selfies you had sent to me.

It's a ritual which I never fail to do, something I would say as my "me time" at office, to simply sit down alone, to just look at your pictures in my phone for few minutes, remembering our moments together, a ritual to break the daily stress at office.

Well, no matter how dull my day is, looking at your smile always lightens me up.

But I wasn't expecting anything from you that day, as I know you're busy with work.

Then the notification appeared after I switched on my phone.

"Baby Bunny sent a photo".

I looked and pondered what it could be.

Maybe a selfie ? Or perhaps the picture of the lunch you had.

With excitement in my heart, I quickly opened the message thread.

And I looked at the picture, just kept looking at it with a smile.

You always know how to touch my heart deeply.

I never expected you to send me this picture, but it really means a lot to me.

Means a lot, because it shows you're happy with the little things I do, or small efforts I put to see you smile.

Thank you Bunny, 

for filling my heart with love and happiness....

Smell Like Love

Your back was facing me,you pulled my hand and placed it on your chest as we cuddled, and I wrapped my other hand around you, feeling the warmth of your body.

The scent of your skin, no dear, wasn't the CK you used, it's just, how do I even explain it ?

The scent of milk ? No dear, I am not lying, it's true, you don't have body odor issues, in fact, even your sweat smells sweat, and nope, I'm not covering things up because I love you, it's just true.

I know a lot of people have body odor issues, but you have none, honestly, remember the moment I tend to put my face on your armpit ? Nope, not smelly, it smells sweet.

I just love doing it whenever we cuddle, every time my nose hits your soft skin, I take a deep breath rejoicing in your skin's sweet scent.

You smell like love.

Yes you do.

Love you piggy boy.

Believe Hope Love

yes, I wrote that  :)

My colleague Athena who is also a close friend of mine is currently teaching me Chinese from the very basic. Being a linguistic undergrad, I know it's kinda tough for an adult non native Chinese speaker  to learn a new language when I'm already going to be 30 soon, but I'm accepting the challenge and won't give up easily since Bunny is my motivation. 

Happiness is...learning a new language to understand him better...

520 1314...

You

I still remember that beautiful smile of yours the first time I saw you, how lovely you looked with that blue shirt and black pants, I still remember how your hands felt the first time I touched them.

I still remember everything.

Slowly, I began to understand you, the more I understood, the deeper I felt that you're part of me, a long lost puzzle that I had been waiting for a very long time. I knew at that moment that I should never give up on you.

You were scared, but I never gave up, because I know you're precious.

Days passed by quickly, looking back, I've realized that day by day, I'm loving you more and more.

Day by day, you fill my heart with warmth and care, you fill my soul with love, slowly, you've healed all my scars within, and I have forgotten about my bitter past.

Every morning, I wake up with a smile, knowing you're there for me, thanking God for bringing you into my life, every night, I go to bed, thanking for another day, for the memories made together.

I'm so proud of you, knowing how beautiful you're inside and out, that kind heart that I adore and love, I feel so lucky, knowing there won't be anyone more perfect than you, I feel blessed, knowing I've found my true love.

I smile when my colleagues tell me how cute and handsome you're, I smile when my gay friends say that you're hot, and that they're jealous of me because I'm your guy, that at times, I ponder what I had done to deserve you in my life, you made my life so beautiful, you've completed me.

To my lovely, cute and handsome Ah Beng,

I know you're not good at expressing your feelings, and although you're not good at it, but you always made me feel special, the way you treat me, how you care about me, those little things you do, things you say, I know you love me truly baby, but what you told me when we cuddled yesterday, those words, I never expected them, and I will never forget them, you've touched me so deeply.

Thank you for everything my love.

Bear bear will love you always.

Bunny's Music Influence

People who are close with me probably know that my music taste is rather complicated, sometimes I would go on techno trance mode by listening to Armin Van Buuren, sometimes when I relax I would listen to new age music by Enya and Loreena McKennitt, or Norah Jones when I think of our intimate moments together.

But everyone who's close with me knows well that I hate R&B and hip hop music, disliked that music genre since high school.

Lately, I have realized that Bunny has somehow influenced me with his music taste, first it was The Carpenters, he borrowed his CD so that I could save it and play whenever we are together, then about two weeks back, he sent me a Youtube link in the morning, which was Lana Del Rey's Video Games music video, listened to it before going to work, and kinda liked that song.

Honestly, I had no idea who she was, since I rarely listen to the radio, and most of the time I would be playing my own playlist. Then last week, when we were spending time together, we watched Lana Del Rey's Summertime Sadness music video, and then somehow that tune was stuck in my head.

Now, I've noticed that I play her songs often and begin to get addicted to her songs.

Bunny has influenced me with his music taste  :)

Slept Like A Baby

He was sound asleep, with his face on the left side of my chest, and his left hand on the right side of my chest.

My face brushed against his hair, I kissed his forehead and continued looking at him.

It was already half an hour, and despite the heat, he slept like a baby on me.

I carefully tilted my head downwards towards him, hoping I wouldn't wake him up, and continued to gaze at him.

I was tired as I had few sleepless nights before, but it didn't stop me from staying awake, it didn't stop me from cherishing the moment, those precious moments of being with him.

It didn't matter to me, although he was asleep, it felt intimate, a simple act of just looking at someone you love who's asleep on you, sometimes it's not always about sex, intimate moments aren't necessarily physical all the time.

It was kinda cute, watching him asleep.

He slept like a baby.

Love is beautiful.

The Full Moon Boy

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky...

i wait looking at the night sky,

counting the days go by,

missing my lover boy as time passes by,

yet my love for him growing stronger each day,

the excitement as the night approach,

realizing i would be with my adorable full moon boy soon,

waiting for him to appear brightly in the night sky,

then the night comes,

and i spend gazing at my lovely full moon boy,

cherishing every moment of being together,

knowing every moment is precious,

as i won't see my beloved full moon boy every night,

feeling that soft comforting glow of his skin,

remembering the sweet moist scent of his body,

holding hands each other,

playing with our fingers,

then a kiss given,

before he leaves the night sky,

and i wait once again,

looking at the night sky,

counting the days,

hoping time would pass by quickly,

to be with him once again...

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky,

and he fills my heart with his healing love..

the wait,

the missing,

tears that flow when time seems too slow,

all these are nothing,

they're just little sacrifices,

for love isn't easy,

yet it gives life a meaning,

and the time spent with him,

makes life worth living...

blessed i am...