Angels

Those who are close with me know well that I love to collect cherub statues, definitely nobody would deny how cute they look, it's kinda nice to have them around home.  

But, there's a reason why I began to collect baby angel statues in my late teenage days.

I believe in angels, because I have many angels in my life, and I have experienced them in many forms throughout my life, of course, in the form of humans. 

There's a cupid in my life, a cute cupid that stole my heart, completed my life, and became my other half whom made my life even more beautiful and healed me with his unconditional love.

Then there are few other wingless angels that came into my life, made me understand about the true meaning of friendship, and became best friends for life.

And some, in the times of hardship, took over my late mother's place in my life, and became my fairy godmothers.

I know many angels, and I am truly thankful to have them in my life  : )

Happy 1st

time flies...

can't believe it's already a year, I mean, it was just like yesterday.

It was just like yesterday, I remember it clearly, from the time you came out of your company, to the time you left the car and waved your hands at me before I left, I remember even the conversation we had that day...

and I can't believe it's been a year, a year since I saw you for the first time.

You know, I was kinda scared and nervous when I saw you walking towards the car, you were wearing black pants with light blue shirt, and you look seriously handsome, and honestly you look very much younger than your age, and that smile, how will I ever forget that heart melting smile of yours, you kept smiling the whole time.

You entered the car and the first question you asked was "Is this Norah Jones ?", and I told you that it was Dido, then you giggled, very cute, and we started to talk and begin to discuss on where to have our lunch since you had to go back to that company early.

And I was very much excited and blur at the same time because that area kinda looked industrial and pretty boring, but luckily you suggested the nearby 7 Eleven.

Then we had our "first" lunch together, you have no idea how nervous I was, but at the same time I was simply happy to see you smiling, and realized you were very much excited to see me that day.

The sandwich and the hot dog you bought along with the canned coffee, which I told isn't good for your health, haha, then we talked and talked.

I touched your hands for the first time, and we continued talking about crazy things.

And you were super happy about the kaya puffs I bought for you, oh yes, now I wonder what happened to my favourite copy of Paulo Coelho's Alchemist which I gave you that day. Gosh, it is still so clear on my mind, it was just like yesterday.

When you left the car and walked towards the company, you waved your hand.

Bee, seriously, you have no idea how lovely you look.

It was the day you captured my heart completely.

Happy anniversary my love.

Love you always....

My Poetry

Everyone on the highway would have enjoyed a beautiful sunset that evening, but I didn't. I looked at you from time to time while driving. Sorry Bee, I know I have to concentrate on driving, but I just couldn't resist the beauty I was looking at beside me. You wouldn't have noticed, you were looking on the side, and you were tired after a day of travelling together, yet, did you know how lovely your brown eyes looked when the dusk's ray fell upon it ? It was so beautiful, that I don't think words could describe it, and I took a quick look on you from time to time, trying to remember that moment, trying to treasure that moment inside my heart.

No Bee, please don't say I'm being cheesy, you wouldn't understand, I'm just like that, I don't really take time to say things to you, whenever I say things like "you look lovely when you give that bunny smile" or "you look really adorable in yellow shirt", I don't say it to simply sweet talk, but those are honest words that come from my heart. 

Sometimes, when we are together, there are a lot of things you do that I really adore, sometimes I wish I could express it to you in words, but at times, you tend to become shy, and you would stop talking to me, or even when we message, when I try to put those beautiful moments into words, you would start to ignore me by sending multiple stickers, and so, I try not to say it, but rather keep them inside me.

But believe me, you're indeed my poetry. Have you ever wondered why do I simply gaze at you while smiling, without saying any words ? Or have you ever noticed how I simply turn to look at you while we are inside the car at traffic stops ? Or would you know why I never slept when we cuddle on the bed, even when you fall asleep ? I always observe you quietly, and everything that you do, creates poetry in my mind. Every moment spent with you is precious, and each of those moments are cherished deep within my heart.

The way you eat those kaya puffs, do you know how cute you look when you enjoy every bit of those puffs, or the movement of your lips, or do you know how your eyes move when you enjoy the food you are eating ? Or the special way you drink from a cup, it's hard to explain by words Bee, but everything that you do, turns into beautiful memories, and makes me adore you in many ways.

The way you move your feet on the beach, which showed how happy you were. The way you pull my hands around you when we cuddle. The way you kiss me. How lovely your smooth skin feels after you shower, or that coolness that comes when I hug you from the back after you come out from the shower, and the warmth of your body that follows, or how you giggle when my beard tickles your neck.

Even when we cuddle, if you fall asleep, I would gently take your hand, feel the smoothness of your hands, sometimes I place your hands on my face, then I would kiss your fingers, sometimes I would gently stroke your eye brows, then I would stare at your lovely lips.

Do you know how I smile the moment my eyes see you from far as you walk towards me whenever I pick you up ? No matter how bad the day was, I will forget about everything, and instantly there would be a smile on my face, why ? Because it's you.

Do you know how excited I get, whenever we are going to spend time together, that I could barely sleep the night before we are about to be together ? Yes, I know love, you might say I'm crazy, and I know it's going to be a year, but don't forget, you're special, and you're my everything, so no matter how long we are together, even if we stay together in the future, I would be looking forward to wake up beside you the next morning, just to kiss you good morning.

Do you know how lovely you look when you wake up with those sleepy eyes looking at me ?

You're my poetry, you gave me a lot of beautiful memories, and filled my heart with love.

Thank you for everything Bee.

xoxo,

bear bear.

Kopi & Susu

Kopi & Susu,

me and you,

you and me,

let's do this together,

life can be challenging,
there are ups and downs,
sometimes it can be frustrating,
but end of the day,
you know it's worth fighting for,
and you know I'm always with you,
no matter what happens,

you'll never be alone...

If you ever feel like giving up,
look how far you've come,
and always remember,
that you're strong,
you're special,
and,
you're important...
Life can be challenging,
but let's look at the bright side,

let's make more beautiful memories together,

and live every moment of this life to the fullest,

let's do this together,
and be there for each other,

you and me,

me and you,

kopi & susu...

xoxo,

bear bear

Thank You

I came out of the office during tea break to check on you, something which I usually do on working days during break time, just to look at my phone and check if you had posted any updates, or to simply send you a message or a sticker just to kacau you, and go through the selfies you had sent to me.

It's a ritual which I never fail to do, something I would say as my "me time" at office, to simply sit down alone, to just look at your pictures in my phone for few minutes, remembering our moments together, a ritual to break the daily stress at office.

Well, no matter how dull my day is, looking at your smile always lightens me up.

But I wasn't expecting anything from you that day, as I know you're busy with work.

Then the notification appeared after I switched on my phone.

"Baby Bunny sent a photo".

I looked and pondered what it could be.

Maybe a selfie ? Or perhaps the picture of the lunch you had.

With excitement in my heart, I quickly opened the message thread.

And I looked at the picture, just kept looking at it with a smile.

You always know how to touch my heart deeply.

I never expected you to send me this picture, but it really means a lot to me.

Means a lot, because it shows you're happy with the little things I do, or small efforts I put to see you smile.

Thank you Bunny, 

for filling my heart with love and happiness....

You

I still remember that beautiful smile of yours the first time I saw you, how lovely you looked with that blue shirt and black pants, I still remember how your hands felt the first time I touched them.

I still remember everything.

Slowly, I began to understand you, the more I understood, the deeper I felt that you're part of me, a long lost puzzle that I had been waiting for a very long time. I knew at that moment that I should never give up on you.

You were scared, but I never gave up, because I know you're precious.

Days passed by quickly, looking back, I've realized that day by day, I'm loving you more and more.

Day by day, you fill my heart with warmth and care, you fill my soul with love, slowly, you've healed all my scars within, and I have forgotten about my bitter past.

Every morning, I wake up with a smile, knowing you're there for me, thanking God for bringing you into my life, every night, I go to bed, thanking for another day, for the memories made together.

I'm so proud of you, knowing how beautiful you're inside and out, that kind heart that I adore and love, I feel so lucky, knowing there won't be anyone more perfect than you, I feel blessed, knowing I've found my true love.

I smile when my colleagues tell me how cute and handsome you're, I smile when my gay friends say that you're hot, and that they're jealous of me because I'm your guy, that at times, I ponder what I had done to deserve you in my life, you made my life so beautiful, you've completed me.

To my lovely, cute and handsome Ah Beng,

I know you're not good at expressing your feelings, and although you're not good at it, but you always made me feel special, the way you treat me, how you care about me, those little things you do, things you say, I know you love me truly baby, but what you told me when we cuddled yesterday, those words, I never expected them, and I will never forget them, you've touched me so deeply.

Thank you for everything my love.

Bear bear will love you always.

Bunny's Music Influence

People who are close with me probably know that my music taste is rather complicated, sometimes I would go on techno trance mode by listening to Armin Van Buuren, sometimes when I relax I would listen to new age music by Enya and Loreena McKennitt, or Norah Jones when I think of our intimate moments together.

But everyone who's close with me knows well that I hate R&B and hip hop music, disliked that music genre since high school.

Lately, I have realized that Bunny has somehow influenced me with his music taste, first it was The Carpenters, he borrowed his CD so that I could save it and play whenever we are together, then about two weeks back, he sent me a Youtube link in the morning, which was Lana Del Rey's Video Games music video, listened to it before going to work, and kinda liked that song.

Honestly, I had no idea who she was, since I rarely listen to the radio, and most of the time I would be playing my own playlist. Then last week, when we were spending time together, we watched Lana Del Rey's Summertime Sadness music video, and then somehow that tune was stuck in my head.

Now, I've noticed that I play her songs often and begin to get addicted to her songs.

Bunny has influenced me with his music taste  :)

Slept Like A Baby

He was sound asleep, with his face on the left side of my chest, and his left hand on the right side of my chest.

My face brushed against his hair, I kissed his forehead and continued looking at him.

It was already half an hour, and despite the heat, he slept like a baby on me.

I carefully tilted my head downwards towards him, hoping I wouldn't wake him up, and continued to gaze at him.

I was tired as I had few sleepless nights before, but it didn't stop me from staying awake, it didn't stop me from cherishing the moment, those precious moments of being with him.

It didn't matter to me, although he was asleep, it felt intimate, a simple act of just looking at someone you love who's asleep on you, sometimes it's not always about sex, intimate moments aren't necessarily physical all the time.

It was kinda cute, watching him asleep.

He slept like a baby.

Love is beautiful.

The Full Moon Boy

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky...

i wait looking at the night sky,

counting the days go by,

missing my lover boy as time passes by,

yet my love for him growing stronger each day,

the excitement as the night approach,

realizing i would be with my adorable full moon boy soon,

waiting for him to appear brightly in the night sky,

then the night comes,

and i spend gazing at my lovely full moon boy,

cherishing every moment of being together,

knowing every moment is precious,

as i won't see my beloved full moon boy every night,

feeling that soft comforting glow of his skin,

remembering the sweet moist scent of his body,

holding hands each other,

playing with our fingers,

then a kiss given,

before he leaves the night sky,

and i wait once again,

looking at the night sky,

counting the days,

hoping time would pass by quickly,

to be with him once again...

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky,

and he fills my heart with his healing love..

the wait,

the missing,

tears that flow when time seems too slow,

all these are nothing,

they're just little sacrifices,

for love isn't easy,

yet it gives life a meaning,

and the time spent with him,

makes life worth living...

blessed i am...

My Valentine

I looked at you as you were asleep beside me, I was tired but I didn't want to close my eyes. Why would I waste those precious moments falling asleep, when we don't really spend time together often.

I looked at you, you look lovely even when you're asleep, I gently brushed my fingers against your hair, hoping I wouldn't wake you up.

Those thick eye brows, that cute nose, those rosy lips, I admired them as you were asleep.

Then I looked at your neck, and slowly gazed upon your body downwards, I put my hands on your waist, and felt the softness of your fair skin, then you turned around, and I continued to admire your beauty.

I looked at your ears, then rejoiced my eyes upon the beauty of your lovely boyish body, then looked down at your cute bubble butt, although you deny and tell me you don't really have a bubble butt, but you seriously do have a nice bubbly ass that really turns me on.

Then you turned around again and put your arms around me, slowly you opened your lovely eyes, and looked at me.

And I continued to gaze at a lovely angel that was beside me.

Sometimes I wonder, how lucky I'm, that despite all the flaws I have, you still love me.

You're lovely just the way you are dear.

I love you, and will always do.

Happy Valentine's Day, my love  <3

Little Things Matter The Most

baby,

have you ever wondered,

how those little things you do,

matter the most to me,

of how it makes me happy,

of how it takes up a big space in my heart,

of how it makes me love you even more,

love you deeper and deeper each day...

the little things that makes you unique,

you're not only cute and handsome,

but you're special,

and i love you for who you're,

and all your little things..

how you look into my eyes..

how your fingers play with my hand...

how our toes do that playful fight when cuddling...

how you wrap your arms around me...

how you sing with your deep sexy voice...

how you walk with a rhythm,,,

the way you sip a cup of coffee...

the smile you give me when you tell me things...

the way you eat...

the cute sideway glance you give me...

how you hug me from the back...

how you rest your face on my shoulder...

how excited you get when you talk about games...

how smart you look when you explain about chemistry...

how you share the little details of your everyday life...

or,

the little meaningful things you say,

that makes me feel cared and loved...

the list is endless,

but baby,

every moment spent with you,

means a lot to me,

and i treasure each moment in my heart,

along with you,

because i love you,

and i cherish all the little things you do..

lucky i am for your love,

blessed i am to have you in my life,

you,

my love,

my other half,

my life...

<3

What Is Happiness ?

What is happiness ?

Loving you...

Keeping you in my heart...

Missing you...

Thinking about you...

Praying for you...

Looking at your pictures...

Saying your name when I'm alone...

Closing my eyes and imagining you...

Hugging you...

Cuddling with you...

Holding your hands...

Pampering you like a baby...

Filling your heart with love...

Uplifting your soul when you feel down...

Being there for you...

Your smile...

Your beautiful eyes...

Pinching your cute nose...

Kissing you...

Running my fingers through your hair...

Sharing food with you...

Gazing at you...

Feeling the warmth of your body...

Feeling that soft baby skin of yours...

Looking into your eyes...

Remembering the sweet moments...

Cute things you say...

Naughty things you tell me...

Naughty moments...

How you "merajuk", get angry with me, and quickly forgive me...

Calling you with special nicknames...

How you care about me...

Knowing how lovely you're...

Knowing how lucky I'm...

You make me happy in many ways,

but most importantly,

you're my happiness,

and,

you gave meaning to my life..

Thank you for everything,

love you always...

That Feeling

My fingers felt your soft hair, as we kissed, our tongues touched, the taste of your saliva, then I looked into your beautiful eyes, and whispered words of love, bite your ears softly, kissed your neck, went down, licked your nipples, brushed my beard on your chest, and your tummy, you moaned, then moved up and we kissed again.

My hands slowly went down, touched your balls, then your huge rod, you gave a naughty smile, I went down, licked your balls, then played with your huge rod, in and out it went inside my mouth, the taste of your precum, my tongue played along, my fingers slowly making way into your tight hole, you moaned, and it was a sweet sound to my ears, I felt happy, knowing that you're enjoying it.

Slowly I went down, and licked your hole, I could see the ecstatic feeling you're experiencing, I wanted to satisfy you, before I do it.

I looked into your eyes, I smiled, my chocolate rod was rock hard. We kissed as I slowly entered your tight hole, you moaned, your hands grabbed my butt.

"I love you", whispered into your ears, as I pushed slowly, enjoying every moment, knowing I have to be slow for my baby bunny to enjoy.

In and out it went, the feeling was....Maybe this is why the heavenly beings envied humans ? For they couldn't get the same sexual pleasure humans experience ? I don't know.

Then I woke up, it was 3.30 in the morning.

Just a wet dream, but I smiled as I grabbed my chocolate rod, remembering the sweet memories, and continued to satisfy myself, thinking about you.

The sweet memories of making love with a lovely boy, a boy so lovely, that even the angels would envy him, for his boyish charming looks.

First,I fell in love with your beautiful heart, and then I fell in love with your beautiful eyes, and that heart melting smile, and finally, I fell in love again with your lovely body.

That feeling...

" the madness of love is the greatest of heavenly blessing " ~ Plato ~

You're My Lucky Star

Dear Bunny,

     Since you came into my life, a lot of good things had been happening to me. You're truly my lucky star.

      I love you  <3  *pinch your nose*

Yours only,

Bear Bear

A Thousand Kisses

a thousand kisses i wish to give you,

each to remind you how lovely you're,

each to remind me how lucky i am,

each to thank Him for bringing you into my life,

each an ode to love that's divine,

each to create sweet moments together...

i love you..

~ a.r.k ~

Heaven Is...Being With You...

Dear Munchkin,

You said let's see who will go up first, and I told you that I wish to leave this world before you do, because life wouldn't be the same if you're not around.

I wish I could gaze into your beautiful eyes for the rest of my life, so please don't leave me alone and go up first. 

Life might be beautiful when I live it for myself, but you make it a paradise by being there in my life.

I wish to see you when you're 70, and say you're still cute, because I know I am "sampat", and I will always be your "sampat" bear.

Yours always,

Honey Bear.

Would You ?

would you stay in my heart,

and let me love you ?

would you let me fill your heart,

with love, joy and happiness ?

would you let me take away,

your sadness and insecurities ?

would you let me care for you,

when you're down or not well ?

would you let me comfort you,

when times are not good ?

would you let me love you,

even when you're old and frail ?

would you let me shower you,

with deeds that are meant for you alone ?

would you let me fill your mind,

with sweet memorable moments ?

would you let me satisfy,

your innermost desires ?

would you let me pray with you,

and share your spiritual journey with me ?

would you my love,

would you ?

~ a.r.k ~