You

I still remember that beautiful smile of yours the first time I saw you, how lovely you looked with that blue shirt and black pants, I still remember how your hands felt the first time I touched them.

I still remember everything.

Slowly, I began to understand you, the more I understood, the deeper I felt that you're part of me, a long lost puzzle that I had been waiting for a very long time. I knew at that moment that I should never give up on you.

You were scared, but I never gave up, because I know you're precious.

Days passed by quickly, looking back, I've realized that day by day, I'm loving you more and more.

Day by day, you fill my heart with warmth and care, you fill my soul with love, slowly, you've healed all my scars within, and I have forgotten about my bitter past.

Every morning, I wake up with a smile, knowing you're there for me, thanking God for bringing you into my life, every night, I go to bed, thanking for another day, for the memories made together.

I'm so proud of you, knowing how beautiful you're inside and out, that kind heart that I adore and love, I feel so lucky, knowing there won't be anyone more perfect than you, I feel blessed, knowing I've found my true love.

I smile when my colleagues tell me how cute and handsome you're, I smile when my gay friends say that you're hot, and that they're jealous of me because I'm your guy, that at times, I ponder what I had done to deserve you in my life, you made my life so beautiful, you've completed me.

To my lovely, cute and handsome Ah Beng,

I know you're not good at expressing your feelings, and although you're not good at it, but you always made me feel special, the way you treat me, how you care about me, those little things you do, things you say, I know you love me truly baby, but what you told me when we cuddled yesterday, those words, I never expected them, and I will never forget them, you've touched me so deeply.

Thank you for everything my love.

Bear bear will love you always.

Bunny's Music Influence

People who are close with me probably know that my music taste is rather complicated, sometimes I would go on techno trance mode by listening to Armin Van Buuren, sometimes when I relax I would listen to new age music by Enya and Loreena McKennitt, or Norah Jones when I think of our intimate moments together.

But everyone who's close with me knows well that I hate R&B and hip hop music, disliked that music genre since high school.

Lately, I have realized that Bunny has somehow influenced me with his music taste, first it was The Carpenters, he borrowed his CD so that I could save it and play whenever we are together, then about two weeks back, he sent me a Youtube link in the morning, which was Lana Del Rey's Video Games music video, listened to it before going to work, and kinda liked that song.

Honestly, I had no idea who she was, since I rarely listen to the radio, and most of the time I would be playing my own playlist. Then last week, when we were spending time together, we watched Lana Del Rey's Summertime Sadness music video, and then somehow that tune was stuck in my head.

Now, I've noticed that I play her songs often and begin to get addicted to her songs.

Bunny has influenced me with his music taste  :)

Slept Like A Baby

He was sound asleep, with his face on the left side of my chest, and his left hand on the right side of my chest.

My face brushed against his hair, I kissed his forehead and continued looking at him.

It was already half an hour, and despite the heat, he slept like a baby on me.

I carefully tilted my head downwards towards him, hoping I wouldn't wake him up, and continued to gaze at him.

I was tired as I had few sleepless nights before, but it didn't stop me from staying awake, it didn't stop me from cherishing the moment, those precious moments of being with him.

It didn't matter to me, although he was asleep, it felt intimate, a simple act of just looking at someone you love who's asleep on you, sometimes it's not always about sex, intimate moments aren't necessarily physical all the time.

It was kinda cute, watching him asleep.

He slept like a baby.

Love is beautiful.

The Full Moon Boy

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky...

i wait looking at the night sky,

counting the days go by,

missing my lover boy as time passes by,

yet my love for him growing stronger each day,

the excitement as the night approach,

realizing i would be with my adorable full moon boy soon,

waiting for him to appear brightly in the night sky,

then the night comes,

and i spend gazing at my lovely full moon boy,

cherishing every moment of being together,

knowing every moment is precious,

as i won't see my beloved full moon boy every night,

feeling that soft comforting glow of his skin,

remembering the sweet moist scent of his body,

holding hands each other,

playing with our fingers,

then a kiss given,

before he leaves the night sky,

and i wait once again,

looking at the night sky,

counting the days,

hoping time would pass by quickly,

to be with him once again...

i'm in love with the full moon boy of the night sky,

and he fills my heart with his healing love..

the wait,

the missing,

tears that flow when time seems too slow,

all these are nothing,

they're just little sacrifices,

for love isn't easy,

yet it gives life a meaning,

and the time spent with him,

makes life worth living...

blessed i am...

My Valentine

I looked at you as you were asleep beside me, I was tired but I didn't want to close my eyes. Why would I waste those precious moments falling asleep, when we don't really spend time together often.

I looked at you, you look lovely even when you're asleep, I gently brushed my fingers against your hair, hoping I wouldn't wake you up.

Those thick eye brows, that cute nose, those rosy lips, I admired them as you were asleep.

Then I looked at your neck, and slowly gazed upon your body downwards, I put my hands on your waist, and felt the softness of your fair skin, then you turned around, and I continued to admire your beauty.

I looked at your ears, then rejoiced my eyes upon the beauty of your lovely boyish body, then looked down at your cute bubble butt, although you deny and tell me you don't really have a bubble butt, but you seriously do have a nice bubbly ass that really turns me on.

Then you turned around again and put your arms around me, slowly you opened your lovely eyes, and looked at me.

And I continued to gaze at a lovely angel that was beside me.

Sometimes I wonder, how lucky I'm, that despite all the flaws I have, you still love me.

You're lovely just the way you are dear.

I love you, and will always do.

Happy Valentine's Day, my love  <3

Little Things Matter The Most

baby,

have you ever wondered,

how those little things you do,

matter the most to me,

of how it makes me happy,

of how it takes up a big space in my heart,

of how it makes me love you even more,

love you deeper and deeper each day...

the little things that makes you unique,

you're not only cute and handsome,

but you're special,

and i love you for who you're,

and all your little things..

how you look into my eyes..

how your fingers play with my hand...

how our toes do that playful fight when cuddling...

how you wrap your arms around me...

how you sing with your deep sexy voice...

how you walk with a rhythm,,,

the way you sip a cup of coffee...

the smile you give me when you tell me things...

the way you eat...

the cute sideway glance you give me...

how you hug me from the back...

how you rest your face on my shoulder...

how excited you get when you talk about games...

how smart you look when you explain about chemistry...

how you share the little details of your everyday life...

or,

the little meaningful things you say,

that makes me feel cared and loved...

the list is endless,

but baby,

every moment spent with you,

means a lot to me,

and i treasure each moment in my heart,

along with you,

because i love you,

and i cherish all the little things you do..

lucky i am for your love,

blessed i am to have you in my life,

you,

my love,

my other half,

my life...

<3

What Is Happiness ?

What is happiness ?

Loving you...

Keeping you in my heart...

Missing you...

Thinking about you...

Praying for you...

Looking at your pictures...

Saying your name when I'm alone...

Closing my eyes and imagining you...

Hugging you...

Cuddling with you...

Holding your hands...

Pampering you like a baby...

Filling your heart with love...

Uplifting your soul when you feel down...

Being there for you...

Your smile...

Your beautiful eyes...

Pinching your cute nose...

Kissing you...

Running my fingers through your hair...

Sharing food with you...

Gazing at you...

Feeling the warmth of your body...

Feeling that soft baby skin of yours...

Looking into your eyes...

Remembering the sweet moments...

Cute things you say...

Naughty things you tell me...

Naughty moments...

How you "merajuk", get angry with me, and quickly forgive me...

Calling you with special nicknames...

How you care about me...

Knowing how lovely you're...

Knowing how lucky I'm...

You make me happy in many ways,

but most importantly,

you're my happiness,

and,

you gave meaning to my life..

Thank you for everything,

love you always...