Birthday

"I thought you would be coming back home yesterday after work, I thought you wanted to have dinner together on your birthday", my dad sadly said while holding out a wrapped gift towards me.

I looked at him, something was squeezing my heart, I felt bad, it's not like I didn't want to celebrate my birthday with him, but traffic on Friday evenings can be hell in KL, and so I decided to head back home on Saturday morning instead.

But, I never told him about the half day off I took at work to be with Bee on my birthday that year.

Am I to be blamed ? Did I do something wrong ? I was in dilemma, both Bee and my dad are my priority in life, Bee is important to me, so does my dad, but I wonder what made me prioritize Bee more that year, that I wanted to spend my birthday with Bee that year.

So was the traffic issue an excuse for simply being selfish ? 

Is it selfish to spend birthdays with your other half instead ?

I don't know, sometimes, I just don't know.

Little did I know that it would be the last birthday gift from my dad.

Sometimes there's a reason why I hate my birthday.

Many bad things happened on my birthday.

I rarely remember a pleasant childhood birthday celebration, my parents love to quarrel on that day for no apparent reason.

And few years back, I decided to commit suicide right on my birthday, on which I survived, and I'm thankful that I did survive, although I still feel embarrassed for my mistake. 

I don't really like my birthday, but I love to gift others on their birthday to show appreciation for their existence in this world, something which I had been doing since I was small, I love to give simple gifts, like bars of chocolate, or cute gifts, and I presume it was encouraged by my late mother, who always said that it's important to do small deeds, like surprising people to make them happy, after all, it's those small little things in life that makes memorable moments.

And of course, it doesn't need to be an expensive or lavish gifts, it's the thought that counts.

After my mom passed away, I recall what my dad did for my birthdays, he would always buy expensive gifts, and often get me cakes from Secret Recipe, although he rarely spent his time with me on my birthday as he was a workaholic. Why, he even bought a coupe cabriolet for one of my birthday, yes he was a super wealthy man, but sadly he assumed those fancy gifts would replace his frequent absence from my life.

But somehow my dad managed to realize his mistakes after retiring, and few times before he passed away, he managed to make few of my birthdays memorable, and he also realized that I prefer those simple pandan cakes from the normal bakeries in town, I never wanted anything fancy, but I was happy that he took the initiative at last to understand what I really like, and that it has nothing to do with expensive stuffs.

And I'm still keeping the last birthday gift he gave me, it's a cute small keychain, so small, yet so meaningful to me, although I don't use it nowadays as it gave up to wear and tear, I kept it safely, and I do take and look at it every once in a while.

But then again, it would never change how I think of my birthday, I dread whenever August comes, and I rarely look forward to that day, a day that holds many bad memories, my birthday.

Unplanned

Unplanned morning sex is beautiful, although we don't kiss mouth to mouth since we just woke up before making love, but still being able to kiss and moisturize his body with my saliva, it's really romantic, the sudden move, the coldness of the morning, the tiny bit of light from dawn that hits our window curtain.

Fondling his butt, running my fingers up and down his boypussy while kissing his neck and biting his ear, and the way he touches me back, it's beautiful, it's special, he makes me go sky high, he makes life even more beautiful, he, is my other half.

This is true love.

I love you, Bee <3

his lovely peach <3

Succulent

We are going to be together for almost 4 years now, and despite all the sweet memorable moments made together, there's one tiny thing that makes me unhappy about Bee, his lack of self confidence, and like all gay guys including myself, he has his own body image issues.

"Bee bee butt where got round, it's flat", over the years, I got used to hearing this from him whenever I compliment his lovely ass.

And to make him feel appreciated ( apart from ravishing his butt while we made love ) I have done few things to let him know that he truly has an amazing ass.

I got him plenty of jockstraps, and fancy underwears.

I honestly told him that he makes me horny AF, and I fantasize him over the weekends while I tfk, plus along the years, he's the only guy that ever appear in my wet dreams, I'm not joking about that part, I truly love him, so basically I never think of another guy, and I can't remember when was the last time I watched porn.

It's not to say that I'm overly obsessed with his butt, but loving him truly, that's my way of showing how much he means to me.

And this would sound TMI, I would only feel complete after I release my "milk" deep inside his boypussy while we make love. That's one of the reason I believe that sex is not simply an act of lust, but it's a form of spirituality that connects two lovers on a higher spiritual level.

Despite all these, he still thinks that he doesn't have an amazing ass, to which I warned him that if he keeps on saying his butt is flat, I would take a picture of his butt and post it online.

So, here I'm, officially posting a picture of his succulent, lovely ass.

I don't care what people might think of this post, but I'm proud of my hubby's lovely ass  <3

dat ass is da best <3

My Sleep Talker

Was half asleep when I felt Bee moving around on our bed, woke up and check the phone, it was around 2 a.m, turned towards him and continued to gaze on him, suddenly he started to talk, he said "bear bear", then giggled, and continued to giggle on his sleep, moved closer to him carefully and gently gave a kiss on his cheek, then continued looking at his movements till I fell asleep. 

The cute things he does even when he's asleep, sometimes I wonder what he's dreaming.

Love you always <3

Warm

one night, well, almost every night while both of us cuddle together

Bee : why Bear Bear hand so warm ?
Me : because you make me warm *kiss his neck below his ear*
Bee : later Bee Bee butt will become steaming hot char siew bao lo...
Me : * continue to fondle his lovely butt with my hands *
Bee : *giggle*

Bee's juicy peach clad in Aussiebum's Catch of The Day mesh underwear  <3

Morning Ritual

the first thing in the morning after waking up,
to give you morning kisses, and naughty bites,
a kiss on your neck,
a kiss on your shoulder,
moving down,
grabbing those round juicy peaches,
two kisses planted on both,
too irresistible not to bite,
so few bites after kisses on your lovely butt,
moving up,
you turn your face towards me,
kisses on your cheek,
kisses on your nose,
kisses on your forehead,
my arms around you,
pulling you closer,
enjoying the warmth of your body,
feeling your smooth skin,
this too is intimacy,
a way to show love,
a way to show appreciation,
on how much you mean to me,
on how much i adore you

a morning ritual,
for you to know,
that i love every inch of you <3

27

Okay, I was supposed to post this after Valentine's day, as in last February, but somehow I totally forgot to update about Bee's birthday on this blog, partly because both of us weren't well after Chinese New Year thanks to the hot weather, and I was taking care of Bee after he had high fever for few days after Valentine's day, plus I ended up with a mysterious locked knee issue after Valentine's day ( nope nope nope, please don't think anything notti  ;p ) which made me go for few Chiropractic session. 

So here it goes, Bee is 27 years old this year, yay, I'm so happy !! Haha, another year older, but my guy remains to look like a cute twink, thanks to his Chinese genetics, I mean, few of our friends told me that he looks like a high school kid, and I'm sure those rainbows who bump into us at malls and theaters would probably think Bee got "daddy issues" since I look freaking old, hahaha !! XD

Anyway, it's my third time celebrating his birthday together, so this year, I surprised him with gifts, and most importantly, a Baymax themed super cute birthday cake, thanks to Foret Blanc, they really did a wonderful job, Bee was so excited when he saw the cake, and he was kinda reluctant to cut the cake, because he said it was just so super cute, felt really happy because Bee loved the surprise a lot, and yes, another memorable moment for us to remember.

Happy 27th birthday my love <3